i'm Lonely~!

yesterday i chatted with hubby almost less than 10 messages..
i seriously didn't expect that he will be buzy until LIKE THAT...
yesterday he started his work at 7am but back at 10.30pm..
actually his work end at 3pm but he OT(over time) cause he said if he wanted to go out with me..
he can get off day easily..
yesterday call..i can't even talk..
cause i didn't know why i can't control my tears by dropping down..
is just keep dropping dropping and dropping..
yet today is just the third day..
i have to pass my day everyday like this..
i have any problem also can't tell him..??
cause i doesn't want to gives him any pressure and brings the pressure to work..
who can i tell to??
today..i purposely set the alarm to 6.30am yesterday..
cause i know that he will text me almost 6.30am..
so i'm using the sleepy condition to chat with him..
so we text for the few messages than he went to work ad..
sooo i woke up and go to grandma house help..as usual..
the only thing not usual is i'm chatting with NO ONE..
than finished help back home with using legs..means walk home..
seriously..i don't know how to be tough..
now i have the feel of extremely lonely..
cause things around me like...
light didn't on and day is raining yet making me feel cold..
the feels like i'm in a lonely dark place..
yet now i'm hearing the sad songs..
wondering what time he will finished his work??