Scary Loneliness~!

i really getting lonely and lonely..everyday i bring my phone along??
wishing that hubby will text me suddenly so i can reply him ASAP..
but too bad..no any single message in my phone..
i think i can throw my phone and let it sleep at home because my phone is totally no any single messages..
already have 2 days my day continuously getting lonely..
now days my hubby busy working..starts work at 7am and end at 11??
yesterday more worst..start work at 7am and end at maybe 12am or 1 am and tomorrow work the same time in the early morning 7am??
wondering do the chef at the sunway hotel treat the worker as human??
yesterday around 9.30pm at night hubby called me by asking me not to wait for him and straight sleep..
but how can i do that??i can't do this??
so i watch the movie gozilla? to waste my time..cause that movie is until around 12.30am??
after the movie he still haven text me..
than at the end i also can't stand of tiredness and slept off..
the next day this morning early 6++ in the morning..
hubby called me by saying good morning??and i'm still in the blur case and think that is midnight 1am??
haiz..i feel to COMPLAIN that hubby didn't accompany and anything??
but how to complain infront of my hubby??if i complain is just to giving him stress!!
what can i do??swollow the complain to my stomach i think??
we already so long didn't seriously chatting in the phone or talking calls~!
this feeling is seriously lonely and bored and also feel suffer of it??
but what can i do??i still have to pass it..
i think i have to try to used to it althrough i don't want to do it..
but other than this way i really don't know what can i do??
must try to understand his feeling that not he doesn't want to accompany me but his work load makes him can't do that??
yesterday my mum had learn to doing booking cinema tickets through internet??
cause they wanted to watch the movie 2012..from start we wanted to watch at new JJ??
but no any single place..all fully booked..than switch the place to old JJ..
i'm gonna watch 2012 at old JJ at 2pm??
haiz..i wanted to buy a wedding dress and a pair of shoes..
cause next week my grandma's sister's son having a wedding at submit??
don't know where it is??but i know is a hotel..
have to wear wedding dress le..where to find??
do i suit to wear it with my this kinda of fat size..
but my grandma want me to join to get some experience..
just now walk to xiao jing's house..purposely walk there to ask her about wedding dress stuff and shoe stuff..
didn't know why i think i not suit to wear wedding dresses althrough i have the curiousity to wear it..
hope tomoro i can find a suit wedding dress and shoes..
hope that's not expensive~cause my budget not much...