Depressed Sad Day~!

Today..the second day i didn't go to school for this whole week..
today 'he' work in the afternoon..
but still..the same..we don't chat much..
today he work from 3pm till 11pm but he say back time not sure what time..
wanted me not to wait for him at night..
feel to wait..but how?wait ad also no use..
we also won't chat much..
today as usual..not going to school i will help my grandma..
not in a good mood today..
didn't know why i suddenly don't feel very well..like something to my stomach..
but i didn't want to care it..cause no one even care about..
why i'm so frastuated today suddenly?why i not feeling well?
NO ONE want to care about..even my dearest ones..
so what i want to care about..??
Do you all can feel my feelings through this blog??
my feeling is extremely depreased..extremely sad..extremely lonely..
just now after back from grandma house..
xiao jing text me by asking me to go the shop opposite my house..
first i say i don't want??but finally also go..
but i didn't eat any food at all..
cause i don't feel to eat at all..haiz..
yet after eat we actually feel to go pui man's house..
but luckily i clever call her first before we go there..
manatau she went out ad..
so didn't go there ad..haiz..