A Weak Kimmie Leong~!

Haiz..a strong kimmie leong yesterday suddenly become a weak kimmie leong..
a never sick me at the end still sick~
don't know what i had eat wrong yesterday??suddenly become so weak??
become no strength..whole body pain..headache..stomach pain somemore..
make me don't really have the appetite to eat something...
feel sooooooo cold somemore..
OMG..what happen to me??!!
today woke up in the early the morning..been called by my mum at the sharp 6am??
maybe she tot that i got exam today..but i ad say i don't have..
she still say that wake up if not will late for exam??!!
yet i doesn't know that she know i sick or not..
but i think that if they know they won't say anything also..
and also impossible take me to the doctor..cause i have been lots of years never see doctor..
is seriously lots of YEARS but not lots of months or days..
cause i'm a healthy fellow..but sometimes healthy fellow also will sick sometimes??
than before that we plan to follow my brother's car to grandma house before he went to school..
but at the end we cancel it cause it is seriously too early to go there..
than around 8++ we walk out from house..and back time is doing the same thing as walking back home..
haiz..don't know why la..i need a rest now..sleep time also body pain..shit~!!!

??? feeling~!

Today's feeling???don't know what to say..cause now is already late night and i still have the "lucky chance" to blogging..
today woke up at around 9 i think..woke up that time..
the first thing i saw is my sister watching her new korean movie..
is quite nice la..like i don't need to study like that..
i wanted to study but i don't have the form 4 science text books..how to study??
don't even have the reference book..sooooob~!
today i'm gonna to watch movie named 2012 at 2pm at old JJ..
booked the ticket from internet..??
went to old JJ..let me think that the moment that be with hubby at the 10th of oct..
really makes me think everything that what had i did with my hubby at the 10th of oct..
like hugging in the cinema??buy my favourite sweet "FOX" in the supermarket..
while thinking back i also laugh in sudden like a mad girl..
than went to the SNJ to search for my panda keychain that i want..
at the end search but can't buy cause sister is beside me??
she thinks that the "panda" is someone else or bla bla bla..
cause i had buy lots of stuff that related with panda??so i didn't buy when she's with me??
but when we leave the SNJ shop and go to the reject shop to find my mum??
i take chance to walk out alone fast and go to the SNJ shop and buy the panda quickly~!
than we went to the cinema to watch the 2012..from start is not that nice and its bored..
keep talking talking talking and talking nie..
but for a while is like so scary and "qi kek"..
the movie is 2 and the half hours..soooooooooo long~!
while i'm having the movie my hubby is having a lunch wedding at around perak??
don't know at where..we chated but less..
didn't know why??getting less and less communication with my dearest hubby~!
at night..we have talks..from sweet till bitter..from bitter till sour..
at the end..close call and he straight sleep..
what the love question that i ask again the answer that i get last time and now is different..
don't know weather is my sensitive or what??!!

Scary Loneliness~!

i really getting lonely and lonely..everyday i bring my phone along??
wishing that hubby will text me suddenly so i can reply him ASAP..
but too bad..no any single message in my phone..
i think i can throw my phone and let it sleep at home because my phone is totally no any single messages..
already have 2 days my day continuously getting lonely..
now days my hubby busy working..starts work at 7am and end at 11??
yesterday more worst..start work at 7am and end at maybe 12am or 1 am and tomorrow work the same time in the early morning 7am??
wondering do the chef at the sunway hotel treat the worker as human??
yesterday around 9.30pm at night hubby called me by asking me not to wait for him and straight sleep..
but how can i do that??i can't do this??
so i watch the movie gozilla? to waste my time..cause that movie is until around 12.30am??
after the movie he still haven text me..
than at the end i also can't stand of tiredness and slept off..
the next day this morning early 6++ in the morning..
hubby called me by saying good morning??and i'm still in the blur case and think that is midnight 1am??
haiz..i feel to COMPLAIN that hubby didn't accompany and anything??
but how to complain infront of my hubby??if i complain is just to giving him stress!!
what can i do??swollow the complain to my stomach i think??
we already so long didn't seriously chatting in the phone or talking calls~!
this feeling is seriously lonely and bored and also feel suffer of it??
but what can i do??i still have to pass it..
i think i have to try to used to it althrough i don't want to do it..
but other than this way i really don't know what can i do??
must try to understand his feeling that not he doesn't want to accompany me but his work load makes him can't do that??
yesterday my mum had learn to doing booking cinema tickets through internet??
cause they wanted to watch the movie 2012..from start we wanted to watch at new JJ??
but no any single place..all fully booked..than switch the place to old JJ..
i'm gonna watch 2012 at old JJ at 2pm??
haiz..i wanted to buy a wedding dress and a pair of shoes..
cause next week my grandma's sister's son having a wedding at submit??
don't know where it is??but i know is a hotel..
have to wear wedding dress le..where to find??
do i suit to wear it with my this kinda of fat size..
but my grandma want me to join to get some experience..
just now walk to xiao jing's house..purposely walk there to ask her about wedding dress stuff and shoe stuff..
didn't know why i think i not suit to wear wedding dresses althrough i have the curiousity to wear it..
hope tomoro i can find a suit wedding dress and shoes..
hope that's not expensive~cause my budget not much...

Necessary worries~!

Yesterday having a necessary worry again..
worry about my dumb hubby who didn't tell me while he is sleeping..
the last thing i know from him is having a talk with his sunway friend in the club..
after that...no more news from that..
didn't even text me anything..don't know why??
than me??tot he is busy talking and not to disturb..
waited from 8 till 9 slowly till 10 than 11..
patient me also become unpatient..
text him no reply..call him no take calls..
making me sooo worry..
call and call and call..
at the end...what i know??he slept at his hostel for that 3 hours..
haizzzzzzz....
today??went to school at 7.05am??
getting bored for the food from mamak stall..
don't know what to eat also..today trying a new things??
which is eat mee goreng at the nasi lemak's stall??
i know that from my hubby that he can't accompany me today??feel soooooo sad and lonely..
after 7am he went to work till now..don't even have a single message that he texted me??
when will i wait till??at night 11pm??
today only got 1 exam paper to do..that is moral??
yesterday hooi hoe somemore say i can't fail my moral..if i fail it i'm not human anymore..
what the..!!but today paper not bad la..
but ask about the pendapat pendapat i don't really know..
came back at 10.30am..went to my car with two of my brother friends...
when on the way back..i saw an unexpected thing..
than a while go to grandma shop to eat and help..
wanted to sleep after back from grandma shop..but jasmine follow me back home..
got jasmine at my house..i seriously don't need to sleep..
cause while sleep she will keep on disturb me..
so i can't sleep for the whole day~!pity me..

Tension~!

hmmm..yesterday night me and ML tension about "something" and also tension about mathematics..
but still got stops calls for a while and i use the "a while to call my hubby..cause he is already at the half sleep condition.."talking sweet calls for 2 times..only i accepts the ML's calls again..=D
both of us tension until 12 am only wanted to close the call..
keep talking call with ML and didn't reply my hubby's message..
let from a everytime patient while waiting my message everytime no matter how long change to keep texting me why didn't reply his message..
a good thing..cause i want him to care about me~!
after finish talking calls..is already 12am??my brother and i also haven sleep..
although is ad 12am..but it seems like no one will help me to iron clothes or something while i'm in a SPM..
even my elder brother also seems like no worries about his clothes..
cause he know that the shirt will automatically iron by his sister and will be automatically fly to his cupboard..
so..althrough is ad 12am..but still have to iron clothes for me and my brother..
wondering why i have to be the slaves at home??
no one will help me to do any single things..
wonder what my sister born for??why should i do house work so much but she did so little??!
today??woke up at 6 sharp..suddenly heard my mum said to ask my sis up faster because my grandma suddenly receive a order for 100 packets mee??
wake up to prepare prepare and prepare..
than went to school KD eat and drink hot teh tarik..
nowdays i will drink hot drinks better than cold drinks??
hot drinks cause of less tummy and it warms your body but cold drinks cause to storm your brain and give you tummy..
i have to eat breakfast cause i'm not gonna eat recess time..??
than slowly my table comes lynn,amanda,pei ghee..
feel funny about pei ghee??cause she told me that she can't sleep last night cause she watches a movie that makes her scard..
the movie named "where got ghost"??and she said she don't scard horror movie cause it won't come and scard you suddenly??
but the movie "where got ghost" do have the parts of suddenly jump out and scard you suddenly..
Todays mathematic paper one not bad..can do..but feel fussy and frustuated cause me and ML's plan fail in process althrough we tention about it last night??
feel to kill ML's friend~!!!!
than to the mathematic paper two..?? i feel shocked cause mostly question i can do??
but i also don't know correct not??can't take too much HOPE~!

Getting Fat And Fat~!!!

Omg~!getting more and more days didn't write blog..
ad have 4 days didn't write blog..
time passes fast~so far so long i ad finish my BM,BI,HISTORY and todays MATHEMATIC paper~
i wanted to write the blog everyday but it seems like i do not have the chance to sit infront of the Pc??
yesterday is a FAT day~!
i ate lots of stuff yesterday because my grandma's sister come again..
come again cause to tell my grandma about her son marriage on the 6th of december..
my grandma's sister house is at KL..marriage also held in KL..
the 5th of december have to go to her house and the 6th of december went to the hotel name submid??
don't know where is this..but i don't know i wanted to go not??
cause have to wear a wedding dress..
as my size..what wedding dress suits me and how i have to wear..??
now days i really can't control the food i ate..
like yesterday..eat alot cause i don't want to wasted food..
I have to control my food and also have to save some money..
now days me is fat and broke..
don't know what happen to my phone now days??
the day before yesterday..my phone key pad num 1 and 4 change to number 7??
yesterday more worst..suddenly all key pad also don't know what happen..
went to the phone shop near my grandma shop..
he say that my phone key pad got problem and if want to change it cost rm35..!!!!
what the.....so expensive..
than i told him that i wanted to take my sister's old phone that can't used right now..
that phone is already is a TKU(telefon kurang upaya)..
so i told him that exchange the keypad..but it is also cost..
before he say i'm wondering that it might cost rm 10??but how much he said??rm 15!!!
getting broke ad..but don't know why this phone ok ad after bedah the phone's body and leave it for half till one day..
so far so long no problem..but can't take too much hope..

Not Happy Me~!

today went to school at 7am..
actually can be early but my brother starts to played his dota..
today not in a good mood..cause have a quarrel with hubby..and also feel of not feeling well..
something wrong with my sorethroat..and bit kinda of flu..
don't know is it because of no mood??
do anything also no mood..but i had tried to control my mood..
not to let bad mood to damage my whole day..
what had i did this morning..??i ate nasi lemak ad before lynn came..
but after lynn came i accompany lynn to eat again..
cause she said that she don't want to eat alone..
so as her friend accompany her lo..so today i confirm grow fat cause i eat lots of oil stuff..
than suddenly amanda shout my name by asking me to do her a favor..
what she ask me to do??ask me to pass the phone charger to Chin guan(one of her acs friend)..
don't know why she don't dare to pass it..i also don't know why i can say the 'yes' word to amanda..
as my attitute i won't agree to do this kinda of necessary things..but doesn't matter la..help friend ma..
so i just go to his friend's table..all guys~!
and say 'amanda asked me to pass it to you..' and he asked me why??i say i tak tau..=)
than he straight say nothing..i straight chaoz.......
today first paper..english paper 1..not bad..can do it..but quite hard..
than turn to the second paper..english paper 2..i know how to do cause i got study..=)
than got an hour half break..took Ml's phone and i saw something..
yesterday Ml seriously got accidently took the picture of me and hubby..
but it looks.......weird~!
went to KD eat..but didn't know that lynn,pei ghee they all went to modern eat..
after eat at KD..prepare to go to the modern find all of them..
walk half way of road..almost reach acs..they came back ad..=.=lll
than patah balik lo..haiizzz..i have no mood to do anything also..
the third paper..history paper 2.!!!! i don't know how to do~!
this paper takes 2 hour and half..i only take it for an hour 15 minute..
i'm the first person who came out from the exam..XD
than i came out and waited for friends lo..
after 15 minute..all of them came put..
saw ML..wanted me to go 'somewhere else' with her..
reach to that place..she do her own thing until i don't know the time passes soooo fast..
suddenly my brother called me by asking me where am i??
i didn't told him where am i but just telling him that i'm coming..
imagine from acs i run back to mgs??RUN~!!!!!!!
my heart beat is like soooooo fast~!gonna stop..
run to the car and fetch me back home..
went back home for a while..bath..change clothes and bla bla bla..
xiao jing suddenly text me by calling me to pasar malam in front my house..
asked jasmine to accompany me..went there just for a little while..
bought some keropok back..when walking back time..
walk pass the road of around hooi hoe's house..
HAHA..like that also can meet..i saw hooi hoe..
he just only came out from his house and prepared to go to pasar malam..
didn't know why before that i ad have a feel that i will meet him..
the first thing i meet him is asked him to let me see his girlfriend's picture..
wow..quite pretty de wor..but i like his phone more..
sooooooo nice..i want~!

Unsatisfied Meet~!

hmmm..how many days didn't write ad a??
feel to write about yesterdays things but don't feel to write??
today is the first day of SPM exams??
yesterday night feel of over stress can't sleep but still force myself to sleep..
at the end slept at around 1am??
i doesn't want to do exams paper half way slept off..
but this thing didn't happen to me today..
yesterday having a stress than cause me can't sleep as i said on top??
wanted to heard my hubby's sound yesterday to release my stress..
didn't know why..my brain only think that only his sound can release the stupid stress i'm having..
but yesterday he finished his work at 11++..after work went to mamak to eat supper..
somemore chit chat with his friend..so i think that i will not have the chance to release my sound and also can't hear his sound..
but too bad..i heard it..he called me for a less 5 minute talk while he is walking back to hostel..
althrough is just a less 5 minute talk..but still..can release the stress that i have..
after talk he suddenly said that he wanted to have a meet today??
have a simplest meet while i have a 2 hour break..
so i straight agreed cause i have no chance to say NO..
cause i also feel to meet him..but is the simplest ones..
simplest ones = no hugs no kiss and no nothing~!!!!!
so today..
having the bm paper 1 today??not bad..
can be acceptable..can do...
but history paper 1..not bad too..cause can shoot(tembak) if you don't know..
but tomorrow..history paper 2..can't shoot anymore but will left it blank i think..
after having the one hour history paper..
rush out ASAP to meet the hubby that i didn't meet for a months 8 days..
but i had let him waited for so long??
cause of punctuality..he reach there early..early for don't know how long??
i think is around an hour plus??cause he keep asking me to come out ASAP..
cause..he is gonna to be a spider man ad..
so i quickly rush out and meet this spider man lo..=)
but while i'm sitting with him a table??slowly comes a ML..than slowly comes lynn and sabrina..
why they come to my table??cause..their mouth is full of sour boom..so come my table to酸我..
pity me..keep accept their 'sour boom'..
even my dearest closest hubby also boom me..=(
but doesn't matter la..as long as happy and fun??
but is not fun to have a meet for just couple of hours than have to say bye bye ad..
is seriously hard to say the word bye bye..
even want to have a HUG also tak boleh..
after that one of them come than all of them go to the next table that have queen and pyng them??
than just left me and hubby on the table..
just talk talk and talk..
after awhile..all of them left..all mgs students all left..
left me and hubby on the table..
but still..we can't hug and do anything..
at the end..have to say bye bye ad..=(
sad meet~!

Adults likes to hear lie more than truth~!

Yesterday happening that makes me hurt and sad~!
yesterday i'm trying to asked my mum about ML they all gonna stay back today??
ask my mum's permission weather can go or not??
but didn't know why my mum's action soooo big..
she say that she don't believe on me??and didn't want to let me go?!
fine..don't believe than..don't believe that i'm her daughter better..i also don't wantt o believe that she's my mum..
is seriously hurt when ur mum said that she never want to believe her own daughter!!!!
what can i do??just shut up and hears whats the crap she's talking..
just ignore what the things that she said..
cause i know i'm not wrong..
i seriously have the heart to stay back and study in the library..
but what my mum say is..say i'm gonna date and out to somewhere else??
what i say is truth but she thinks thats a lie??
than what i say a lie she thinks that a challenge..
WTH~!
yesterday after she don't allowed me to stay back..she wanted me to put the phone on the table..
so what??just put la..now i never scard that she will confiscate my phone??
cause i have a spare phone..
didn't know why i will buy a spare credit??cause i wanted to call my hubby at night and have a sweet talk..
but didn't know that i have another usesage of the credit to put on my spare phone.
what i can say is..feel sad of it~!

3 more days left~!

How many days i didn't touch blog ad??
counted today can say is 3 days i think..
the first day i didn't write blog is cause of i don't have the CHANCE to sit and play infront of my PC..
my pc is always in a 'busy' condition..
the second day i didn't write blog is cause of my younger stupid brother makes my mum angry and what my mum do??take off the cable..~!!
than what can i do??study la!!
now i asked my neightbour/people who fetch me back home teaches me mathematics..
i think she teach me teach until gonna vomit blood one day~!
yet still regret of it why i didn't find her earlier..??
if i find her earlier??i think my math will pass i think??
but now i'm also trying my best to the best to understand it..
but i can't do all the time with mathematics cause i haven finished study my history!!
who can make me a time table??but also no use..
now only use time table = nothing..
long time didn't mention about my hubby??
his work starts will make him extremely busy and tired..
as his girlfriend what can i do is just don't get frustuated about he didn't care about me and bla bla bla..
but sometimes i really can't care about my stupid temper..
still will treat him bit of frustusted??
yesterday is a sad day for me cause we don't even talk in a call??
wanted to call but the whole house and whole room full of people??
waited till 12am still can't talk..
straight cancel the talk and let him sleep..cause he is tired..
althrough i feel to say No and waited his brother finished his work only talk..
but i can't do it..*haiz...talking craps here*

OMG~!

Omg..the day of the SPM is getting nearer and nearer..
still only have 6 days to go than have to take the first exam..
BM and history~!!!!why history starts first??
i'm also getting stressing..yet i also don't know what to do??
i seriously try to study in my grandma's shop..but is seriously impossible..
cause their is noisy..is not a good study place..!!
do have a place that is seriously quiet??
yet..what subject should i starts first..
haiz..my brain is absolutely empty..~!!

Sobs~!

actually i'm planning to go to school today cause xiao jing's said that she will pass the bag that i bought from catalog to me??
but at the end she change her mind by going to school..
yet she say the bag is big and doesn't want to take to school and say will pass it to me today??
i'm waiting for her..wondering will she bring the bag to me today??
i wanted to see the bag??whether that bag suits me??
hope that bag won't be that big that how xiao jing's said..
hmmm...today didn't go to school..but have to woke up as the schooling time..
cause my brother is going to school today..
lazy to walk to grandma shop/house..so we been forced to woke up early..
because of today is my brother class party??yesterday night ask my mum to sponcer his class a cake..
don't know what cake is that??
but is not the cheese brownies and thick chocolate cake that i like..
maybe i ate too much of my mum's cake or other reasons??
the cake that my mum did last night i don't feel to eat it..
i tried to study at my grandma shop??but i can't..
i can't have the full concentration of it cause study half way got customer..
yet the TV is infront of me somemore~!!!
than came back home..plan not to sleep and try to study history at the back alone??
but is seems like so hard to get into my mind and understand it??
do have a tricks to understand the history and all of the subjects??
chatted with my neighbour that stay opposite my house??
wanted her to teach me how to do mathematics??
i'm gonna spend all the time there whenever she free..
cause i'm seriously lag of time..and i feel regret and stupid why don't i find her earlier??
went there at around 8.30pm till around gonna 11pm..
never know i got LOTS of question i don't know..=(

I Miss My Dad~!

i didn't write my blog yesterday..cause my brain stuck and empty,,

now my brain thinks abit of yesterday stuff..

the things that let me feel memorable is..went to school yesterday..

got principal retire stuff..mr.Teh holding a gittar by giving a surprice to the pricipal..

sang a song yet playing the gittar..didn't know what song..only know that's a old english song that my dad played before through the PC..

just when mr.Teh is singing i'm singing abit along..and ML is staring at me??thinking of what??wondering why i can sing a extremely old song??

cause the song is in my mind??what a dumb me??don't even know what song is that but i still can sing it..

i didn't know what old song i know??no matter is chinese or english??

cause last time my dad used to played through PC or TV through extremely loud speaker when i'm small??

but too bad..i will never have the chance to heard my dad's sound..see my dad's face..hold my dad's hand..hug my dad..and never ever have the chance to hear my dad's sound that scolding me..

every old chinese/english song played in TV??or let me accidently heard in the radio??

i for sure flash back the memories last time..and also feel to cry about it..

like now??i'm hearing the sad song..writting this blog and flashing back the memories last time by dropping tears??and sometimes i'm thinking..

Where's my dad now??is he stay good in the another world..??

that day??when accompanied queen dancing at the canteen..

also accidently heard of one english old song..i think is extremely old song..

named 'don't forget to remember'..I MISS MY DAD BADLY..

but i will never ever see him again and feels his temperature..

feel admire to my sister cause she went to sunway lagoon yesterday..

pity me...as her sister i still haven have the chance to go sunway lagoon..she ad went..embarrased..

but now think back also nothing to admire about..cause she don't really play games there..

cause she didn't know that borrowed a float or borrow anything need MONEY..

now..she let remind me that next time go to sunway lagoon have to bring some money no matter how??

scard the money will wet??than used brain abit..

this world have a thing named 'plastic'..

and yesteday..heard my sister said..

her friend and her went to bathroom for bathing..??

and they saw a unexpected thing..

what they saw??they saw 4 girls..(actually can say is woman)

cause is almost 30-40 years old..full naked/bogel in the bathroom..sitting on the chair and talking..

don't they feel embarassed.??yet when my sister and her friend staring them??but they don't even care about it??

is seriously full naked??don't even wear a bra or a underwear??

OMG..what their mind thinking??they think they still young??

i have nothing to write about today??

cause everday's affair..i'm doing the same thing everyday..

i think i haven wrote it you already expect what will i write..=)

OUCH..WHAT A PAIN~!

yesteday's post??
woke up at around 9am??do house work..
fold clothes..dry clothes and iron clothes..
yesterday got lots of activities..
after iron clothes went to bath..than preparing to go to my father's side uncle house(my dad elder brother)..
cause my 二家姐(in cantonese) suddenly ask us to go their house cause long time no meet??
haiz..there??is really seriously a place to enjoy..
got big tv to watch..got junk food to eat..got soft drinks to drink..got chocolte to eat..
got WII to play..got pc to play..got bicycle to cycle..got car to drive..
AND..if u like dogs there got dogs to play..
anything u can find there..stay at home the whole day also won't get bored of it..
but we only stayed there for around 2 hours i think..
yesterday i went upstairs to play PC in my cousin sister room..
but didn't know why she accompany me for a while straight went down..
so left me alone in the room..
finally my mum found me in my cousin sister room..screw me up..=(
than after leave my uncle's house..we went to JJ..
the place we wanted to go on saturday night but my mum don't dare to drive at night..
so we changed to go on yesterday..
went there to buy a bag for my sister..
we saw a fight yesterday while my brother choosing shoes in converse..
one is the promoter in converse and one of it is just a pass by people..
two of them started with a mouth fight by scolding each other by not charing inside the shop got customers not..
than they started to fight by dragging hairs..
OUCH..WHAT A PAIN...
wonder that if the bos there..the promoter for sure fired from the bos..

Hardworking Me =D

yesterday is a scary day for me..
chat with hubby half way on the afternoon yesterday..
he suddenly didn't reply any even single message..
i keep text and call also no reply..
than i was worried for the whole day until i keep calling him and the money keep on decrease and decrease..
until the late night around 11.30pm-12am like that..
i really can't stand without contacting him..
worried about what will happen to him and bla bla bla..
what i do??i call his house phone which i never call before by using my handphones..
but no one take calls..finally he texted me by saying his phone spoil and can't text..
so he switched off his phones..=(
yesterday he slept at around 1am??but have to wake up before 7 to work cause work starts at 7am..!!!!!
OMG..!!wondering he can stand with the tired not??
HE IS TOTALLY EXHAUSTED!!!!
hmmm...today early in the morning got a calls from my cousin at 7am..
calling me by asking me wheather i wanted to go jogging or not??
than i asked my sister up to accompanied me for the jogging..
jog around for a round full 1 round short..
than after that we went to eat breakfast at che liung..whats my breakfast??
share a mee hun ke with my sister..
after eat we went to che liung morning pasar...
at there i met lots of my grandma customers..
all also reconise me..what to do??i'm famous enough in my grandma shop..XD(joking)
just now around 12pm i slept a while..
SUDDENLY..my mum came back and saw my sister and i sleeping..
than started to po pek po pek..and also started to shout shout and shout..
the sound she shouts really gives me a feel to got thieves came to my house..
take abit of gan jiong and angry..haiz..
pity my ear~!

Worrying~!

yesterday i'm in a extremely sad and bad mood..
is the WHOLE DAY bad and sad mood..
my hubby finished work at 11pm..
we don't text much cause i'm so down last night..but we used to talk la..
since we used to talk..of course is talk till late night and talk till money ended..
but finally he also can make me happy back and good mood back..
i feel so sorry to him..because i scolded him and
hmmm..today is the third day i didn't go to school..
what can i do??of course stay at help in my grandma shop la..
today don't really have something happen..
the things make me surprice is my hubby woke up early..
woke up at 9.30am??than we started chat..
but i doesn't like that is...
when he want to started work or when he is waiting for buses..
his mood will have 180 change..
become a cold panda..
yet just now didn't know why 1++pm time..
he didn't text me at all..i think his phone got something problem..??
even call also..'hello..the person you call is unavailable..please drop message after the beep..BEEP...'
haiz..i think so is around like that la..didn't know correct or not la..
but he never reply my any message..worried la..soooooooobbb~!

Depressed Sad Day~!

Today..the second day i didn't go to school for this whole week..
today 'he' work in the afternoon..
but still..the same..we don't chat much..
today he work from 3pm till 11pm but he say back time not sure what time..
wanted me not to wait for him at night..
feel to wait..but how?wait ad also no use..
we also won't chat much..
today as usual..not going to school i will help my grandma..
not in a good mood today..
didn't know why i suddenly don't feel very well..like something to my stomach..
but i didn't want to care it..cause no one even care about..
why i'm so frastuated today suddenly?why i not feeling well?
NO ONE want to care about..even my dearest ones..
so what i want to care about..??
Do you all can feel my feelings through this blog??
my feeling is extremely depreased..extremely sad..extremely lonely..
just now after back from grandma house..
xiao jing text me by asking me to go the shop opposite my house..
first i say i don't want??but finally also go..
but i didn't eat any food at all..
cause i don't feel to eat at all..haiz..
yet after eat we actually feel to go pui man's house..
but luckily i clever call her first before we go there..
manatau she went out ad..
so didn't go there ad..haiz..

i'm Lonely~!

yesterday i chatted with hubby almost less than 10 messages..
i seriously didn't expect that he will be buzy until LIKE THAT...
yesterday he started his work at 7am but back at 10.30pm..
actually his work end at 3pm but he OT(over time) cause he said if he wanted to go out with me..
he can get off day easily..
yesterday call..i can't even talk..
cause i didn't know why i can't control my tears by dropping down..
is just keep dropping dropping and dropping..
yet today is just the third day..
i have to pass my day everyday like this..
i have any problem also can't tell him..??
cause i doesn't want to gives him any pressure and brings the pressure to work..
who can i tell to??
today..i purposely set the alarm to 6.30am yesterday..
cause i know that he will text me almost 6.30am..
so i'm using the sleepy condition to chat with him..
so we text for the few messages than he went to work ad..
sooo i woke up and go to grandma house help..as usual..
the only thing not usual is i'm chatting with NO ONE..
than finished help back home with using legs..means walk home..
seriously..i don't know how to be tough..
now i have the feel of extremely lonely..
cause things around me like...
light didn't on and day is raining yet making me feel cold..
the feels like i'm in a lonely dark place..
yet now i'm hearing the sad songs..
wondering what time he will finished his work??

Ponteng Class~!

today extremely sad...cause hubby went to work early..
went work at 7am??!!!soooo we can't even chat at all??
yet until now..also haven text me any messages..
my phone is sooooo lonely~!
today went to school suddenly feel a shock..
people who call us must come to school tomorrow but she herself didn't come..
ISH~!!!!
just now before recess class...
met pei ghee and jessica in the toilet..
suddenly pei ghee giving me a insidious feeling by asking me that what stage am i with hubby??
OMG..what i answered??i said the same stage..=)
cause we didn't meet him for around a month..
just now recess time i also meet them in canteen..
talk talk and talk..after recess went to outdside pei ghee class continue the talk with pei ghee and amanda..
until i very late nie go in class..at the end i ponteng class for 2 period..
damn risky..from outside pei ghee's class switch class to library with amanda..
sooooooo we talk about how amanda know my brother..
haha..hearing the story about my brother is like kinda weird..
after the ponteng of 2 period quickly run back to class before teacher came in..
at the end...SAFE..
wondering by i taking my sweet afternoon sleep..
everyone likes to called me in the afternoon..
man ling..xiao jing..and my brother...
xiao jing suddenly called me by saying i'm outside your house ad??
giving me a shock with my blur face..
but at the end badminton cancel..
cause she came tooo late ad..XD

Missing My Dearest~!

today ??miss my hubby soooo much cause today is his first time work and first day work?? he went to work and stay at the hostel giving me a feel of he is going out to outseas..??
nothing much happen at school?? just didn't know why all teacher's likes to call my name today??
today at school??talks about the primary time of all of us..??
didn't know why can so enjoy talking bout primary stuff??
about how we bully people??how to fight back words and so on??
and also talk about how to bully the bit*h who like to bully people who weak than her??
when talk about all of these stuff??they all also will be a people that you don't reconise at all..
will be very mean and vilent??XD
just now after school??feel to take some photo that is stupid + funny??
because of too many people there yet there's beside the road side??
so we didn't take lots of pictures??
after back home..thinking what to eat??
like saying that i have the choice..??
weather to eat a bread that gonna spoil or eat magee mee??
i choose magee mee..eat till half full..not going to grandma house later??
cause to avoid the food at grandma's house??
my brother choose both??means bread plus magee mee..
didn't know what's gonna effect his pity stomach but don't care about him..
he likes to mix stuff..he ate two sets of bread??
shared with my sister??1 set of bread is add peanut butter and raisins than take it to toast it??
the another set is add a piece of cheese and sugar on top??
WHAT A CREATIVE BROTHER??WAITING FOR HIM TO ''O LI TU''??

Feel Sad Of It~!

this is yesterday's blog..
yesterday didn't know is a good day or a bad day but i only know that is a slave day???
in my memory i remember i woke up at 8.30am??
woke up by my big elder brother..keep calling my name..ISH!!!!
than 2 brother went out to grandma house..
i can't out..i have to stay at home to be a SLAVE..
what i should do is do all the praying stuff??
having the menstruation also have to do it??pity pity~!
forget it..just do~!!!
than dry clothes than wash clothes than iron clothes..
CLOTHES CLOTHES CLOTHES!!!!
yesterday didn't went to jogging..
cause day is just like gonna rain??
yet my uncle ad borrowed my mum's car so can't go lo..
straight bath and go to qiant..cause our house ad don't have anything??
have to go and buy something to fill in??
and also wanted to go and see how my brother working situation??
haiz~!think of these also feel sad..
i saw my standard 6 friend yesterday??
she didn't reconise me anymore..
do i look so much different??
because of today my hubby started his work??
soooo i feel sooo sad about it..
he can't fully accompany me ad..=(
sooooo yesterday i have a lastly sweet call..
cause he is going to stay at hostel and we can't talk at night anymore??
even i straight drop tears my hubby also know..
i really feel sad of it..=(