Finally~!

Finally..finally i can back to my blog..
i'm gonna upload picture until half fainted..
wait for the picture until don't know how many century..xD
hmmm..today is my hubby's birthday..but i can't accompany him..=(
but yesterday night i'm waiting for the 12am sharp and wish him happy bithday..
he somemore wanted me to sang him few language of birthday songs..
got chinese..cantonese..malay and english..
so weird when i have to sing alone to him..
my 1st time experience again..=)
yesterday night i'm trying my best to ask her that can i out with friends??
as what she said..call me not to plan first but ask her permission first..
i did it what she had said..but at the end..
she also didn't say that she let me out..
i told her that i wanted to out with friends on my birthday..
but she say cannot..than i say i wanted to have a friend gathering on my bithday..she also say cannot..
why can't she promise me once??can't that be my birthday present??
how good if my dad still alive??he for sure will give me a wish..
maybe she don't believe me anymore..
as a mum that don't believe her own daughter..am i still counted as her daughter..??
from finished SPM till now..i keep all my stress in my heart..waiting for a day i can burst out and enjoy..
she had been trying to take us out but i aint happy..
cause i wanted to enjoy it with my friends..
after she disagree with what i said??i straight go in to room and drop tears as much as i can..
and suddenly..i miss my dad soooooo much..
remember last time don't know how old i am??
on the day of my brithday..my dad letting me to sit infront of the car..
usually my younger brother and sister will fight for it but on that day i sat it..
although is just a very simple simple thing..
but is in my brain all the time..
NOW..as my hubby said..don't care about what outings anymore..
i don't know why i should be like that..
just don't care..don't know when can i have the freedom and have a perfect gathering with all my classmate and my hubby..
i'm sooooo sorry with all the friends..
maybe until i get the work from the interview tomorrow i will gain more freedom i think??
but can't thinks that sooooo perfect cause it might cause you dissapointed with that..
tomorrow i have a interview to work as my brother's type promoter..
i don't know how the interview is??but only hope that i can pass it..