Hope My Dream Come True..=)

my life getting meaningless since i finished my SPM paper..
cause i say the life is meaningless cause i'm doing everything the same everyday..
and i don't have any single of freedom...
even i told her that i wanted to out for once for my birthday her answer will also a NO!!!
getting started to miss that moment that my mum say YES before??or she never say it before..
now my mind is just like full of meaningless and hopeless stuff??
everyone after SPM have the chance to release their stress by going out with friend??
going to have enjoy with their own hubby??or even have trips with friends..
how about me??i get nothing!!!
not even have a small single outings..i want to have a gathering with my classmates!!!
tomorrow i have a small birthday party..with cousin and family like that..
i also invited my friend which are xiao jing..queen..pui man..
three of these are for sure coming but man ling and pyng not so sure..
just now i also texted guat woon..beau pink..tzy li..and amy..
but they can't come because they are at malacca now??
this is the difference of parents believe on them not??
if parents believe they will not tie their own daughter so tight..
what i can say was speechless..
hmm..got somemore another 7 hours the new year will come and also my birthday will come..
don't know what present will i get tomorrow??
but if the birthday wish that i wished will come true..
i wish i will have freedoms to out..and wish that mum don't care me so much don't tie me so tight..
hope my dream come true..=)

Sigh~!

Today woke up in the very very early morning cause my brother went to Port Dickson so no one fetch us out..
this morning is been fetched by my second uncle who ask us to help my grandma early in the morning..??
Today i do have an interview at damansara at 10am..
went to grandma shop and help until around 8.40am i went to groom and bath and bla bla bla..
after that..waiting for my uncle to fetch us..
manatau??he late..soooo my mum say don't need to go ad..=(
make me nervous for a whole week for fun!!ISH!!!
than when my mum say don't need to go ad??we are already at convent..
my uncle drop by convent to let my sister and her friend to put the form 4 forms...
after that..my sister say wanted to go to sunway piramid..
cause before that we was thinking after my interview we are planning to go KLCC or Mid Valley..
since now i do not have interview..change the shopping location to sunway piramid..
but didn't know why although i had out from house to a shopping mall??
i still ain't happy..maybe i'm going out with cousins or family(the ppl i don't wish to go out with)..
what i wish now was i wish to have an outing with friends or with my hubby..
and i also wish that i can have a big group of class mate gathering outside..
so..now this interview is failed..wondering when will be the next interview is??
i hope that the interview is ASAP..also hope that the interview i go alone..
AND extremely hope that the interview that day..my hubby was off day and can accompany me???
but sometimes things you hope won't exist sometimes??*sigh*
back to the sunway piramid ones..
when i hardly went to sunway piramid my hubby off day..
why we both like soooo wu yuan??
but actually if hubby can go we also have less chances to meet cause my sister is with me!!
pity..why our relationship will be like that..=(

Finally~!

Finally..finally i can back to my blog..
i'm gonna upload picture until half fainted..
wait for the picture until don't know how many century..xD
hmmm..today is my hubby's birthday..but i can't accompany him..=(
but yesterday night i'm waiting for the 12am sharp and wish him happy bithday..
he somemore wanted me to sang him few language of birthday songs..
got chinese..cantonese..malay and english..
so weird when i have to sing alone to him..
my 1st time experience again..=)
yesterday night i'm trying my best to ask her that can i out with friends??
as what she said..call me not to plan first but ask her permission first..
i did it what she had said..but at the end..
she also didn't say that she let me out..
i told her that i wanted to out with friends on my birthday..
but she say cannot..than i say i wanted to have a friend gathering on my bithday..she also say cannot..
why can't she promise me once??can't that be my birthday present??
how good if my dad still alive??he for sure will give me a wish..
maybe she don't believe me anymore..
as a mum that don't believe her own daughter..am i still counted as her daughter..??
from finished SPM till now..i keep all my stress in my heart..waiting for a day i can burst out and enjoy..
she had been trying to take us out but i aint happy..
cause i wanted to enjoy it with my friends..
after she disagree with what i said??i straight go in to room and drop tears as much as i can..
and suddenly..i miss my dad soooooo much..
remember last time don't know how old i am??
on the day of my brithday..my dad letting me to sit infront of the car..
usually my younger brother and sister will fight for it but on that day i sat it..
although is just a very simple simple thing..
but is in my brain all the time..
NOW..as my hubby said..don't care about what outings anymore..
i don't know why i should be like that..
just don't care..don't know when can i have the freedom and have a perfect gathering with all my classmate and my hubby..
i'm sooooo sorry with all the friends..
maybe until i get the work from the interview tomorrow i will gain more freedom i think??
but can't thinks that sooooo perfect cause it might cause you dissapointed with that..
tomorrow i have a interview to work as my brother's type promoter..
i don't know how the interview is??but only hope that i can pass it..

The Christmas Eve Party~!

The present we prepare among me..my sis and jasmine's..

birthday girl..=)

The Bithday Cake..*yummy*

jason and sharene..

sharene and mr.president..

leng lui and leng zai..michelle and ravin..

shanice..=)

michelle and shanice..

michelle and shanice

leonie and the small guitar..

promoting the small guitar..=)

michelle and niro..

me and shanice..

me and sharene..=)

me and jason..xD

jason and sharene..

me and mr.president..

tuck long and shanice..

tuck long and sharene..

me and chia wei..

me and josephine..

me and mandy..=)

SS..shock sendiri..xD

me and justin.

don't know where shanice see..xD

me and niro..=)

me and seow yee..don't know mana dia tengok.=.=lll

DYC '09 @ KCBA Part 8 (The Green Shirt Photo)

my group..=)

jasmine's group..=)

my sister's group..

sharene's group..

seow yee's group..

shanice's group..

yennie's group picture

my group plus lots of group..

THE FAREWELL TIME..T.T

preparing...

take picture first..=)

shake hands...

hugging time..=(

hug tight tight..

hug tight!!!

don't cry don't cry..

tears drop..

hugging time..wuwu..=(