The Fake 1 Year Anniversary

Today..1st of february..
is the 1 year anniversary if we didn't crush out..
from the day we break until now..i was thinking lots..
thinking weather want to wait for him or just give up..
and the answer..until now still don't have an answer..
maybe for me..is really hard to give up a deep relationship with these short days..
didn't know that he treated me is true or not..
as long as in these 11 months and 20 days..
i'm seriously feel his heart is with me..
until he told me that all the one month that he know that girl..
he started to treat me fake..i don't believe it..
didn't know why..in that a month plus he said..
is passes his birthday and my birthday..
althrough on my birthday he didn't give me any present..
but for me..he ad gave me 2 special present that no one will have it..
one is the 4 dumb stupid cute pictures that he forces himself to take just to make me laugh..
and the 3 birthday songs that he record and send it to me..
for me..this 2 present is special enough and i don't really need any present anymore..
after we broke up..lots of things i don't really used to it..
like..everyday the person i texted is only him..
and now..my phone can just throw aside a day also no one texted me..
and i had used to it mostly every night i can hear his sweet sound and sweet talk before i sleep..
and now..no more..
and also everytime i sick or i have something wrong and i told him..he will straight care about me and ask how was my condition..
and now..i'm seriously sick..no more strength..and also no more his care anymore..
and everytime i'm frustuated on something and i told him..and he will comfort me..
and now..all my frustuated thing what i can do is thorw back inside my heart..
i'm seriously don't used to it the single life..single life is bored..
some of the comment says that single life is good cause you can know any friend or guys without caring anything..
and also can out with guys without telling your boyfriend..
i don't know..i really don't know how to make decision..
just..let the time pass..
and now..what i can do is make more friend in work..
so my life won't be so bored and meaningless..